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Hello. Welcome to mad ramblings of Miss Cathie ~ She prefers that you either call her by her name or her online alias of Ashley-Kat. <3 Her Tumblr is dedicated to everything she finds amusing, sweet, funny or just plainly put "life".
Hate being Independent
Sometimes I get so annoyed at what my mother says about “You’re not young anymore, you need to marry a good rich guy. Looks aren’t everything. Stop being so naive about things.”
But today she said something that made me think. “You’re too independent for boys your age. They see you as someone who doesn’t need to be looked after.”
I finally know why I’m getting friend/brozoned.
Damn. So its because I seem so strong? I appear to be independent, as if I don’t need anyone in the world to rely upon. Urgh. Seriously. I’m still a girl. I would absolutely love nothing more than to kick back, rely on someone else to look after me. I would LOVE to just be someone else’s responsibility. Why? Simple. I’m tired. I’m lazy. I’m frail. I hate working. I hate worrying. If someone loved me enough to provide for me, then GREAT. Its not like I don’t want it…
But I haven’t found someone like that yet. I’m not in a hurry, but then again… my youth is now and time is slowly, but surely… running out. Urgh.
Get it together.
Piecing everything back together.
I didn’t realize how much of a negative person I’ve been till I thought about it. People who don’t even know me can see the depression… everyone but me sees how broken down I am. I feel like I owe everyone an apology.
Maybe this month really hasn’t been the best of times. I’ve gone through an emotional roller coaster ride right from the start. It just never ends. Everything bad just kept piling on and on… I’m so tired. It also doesn’t help when you have a mom who pressurizes you constantly about marriage and your future… I’m still so young, I don’t want to settle down. Yet. I don’t really have a choice.
Oh yes. The problems we all face.
AND some people just use you for their own entertainment purposes. Hypocrites who say that they’re too nice, yet does exactly the same thing that they hate. Maybe, in a way I’m one of them too. Maybe that’s why its so hard for people to trust each other, because you really don’t know who will stab you in the back one day. Maybe. I deserved all this. I believe in karma.
… Hopefully karma will turn for the better soon.
